Untrusted Feeling

There are many ways to know how about people intention to me. I can be good friends, liar, teacher, sister, or maybe devil’s. In several occasion, I said, maybe I use worst ways to get know about it, but this is me. It builded by my journalist insting and maybe not much people would agreed with it and I unstated with them without complained,.

Even they called me devil’s or some worst words I am still okay because u knew them well they always misunderstood me. But, if I had intention to someone with depth, I think he knew it where is my heart go. Do not make complained to me because he knew me already. It called true lover. But, maybe I did mistake about how deep he knew me. So, it is what it is. I still damn right, how people always misunderstood my way. So it is way to showed me nobody knows me. Good thing.

If untrusted come between, how come feeling could bond stronger because untrusted become poison and destroyed true feeling.So, let time bring us to showed who will be right on this feeling. I still believe, Allah still love me on my own way.

Song of the Suling

Aug10 2007 for: Widiya Buana. By: Khalil Ali


The song of the suling,

Cries…

Crooning the story of my longing,

To be again, with you…


Yet, instead of the sadness,

With it’s desire to kill me;

I place you in my Hati,

As an Idol!


I long for you with,

Happiness…

And I busy my life with good works;

Preparing for the day of our, re-Union.


As it is for you, so it is with God.

My longing for you and my Love,

are but a reflection of the yearning I hold,

To be again, with our Allah! Amin.

Stone on Someone

i had nice thing to say. this all about small stone i found when walked around for got some freshy air. Not much know about stone including me. I am just simple girl and went out for something new. I never thought i would find curious stone on my way. None of Us will be know what will be found on road. We just know there should be something new out there prepared for us.

Then i brought this stone to my home, touched it, wondering, why such stone like this i found near my foosteps. This stone very unique seems there are sparkling light out into it. I guise at, rowling my eyes, and make sure there was nothing special on it. But why my heart so close with it?

Stone sometimes refer to rock. It made by some particles, minerals, and maybe the texture of the constituent particles and by the processes that formed them. I love to say stone, because it sounds very strengthen and powerfull. Stone refer to standing on principle or might be solid heart.

I knew already then why God had intention i found stone because stone sometimes being shaped into people. I knew it that stone build on into someone i have knowledge about him and i cannot denied he is stone in many things. Like in his heart,thought,principle, and even in love.

Two of Us

Look at me more please and i will telling you there was so much things you should know. When flowers bloosom at May and spread the scent then mantled me with it i am really naturally woman in every single day u ever seen before. Needs comfy, related, and sometimes need to be pampered.

I dont need more belongings for. Seems not important to said but it wasnt word i said for executed. When i felt alone i could seeking you for secure me. Maybe, in that day, i could say not have own emotional with you. Like When moon covered by cloud. But, there was reason, why i shall hiding more for makes my feel unbreakable.

Today, asking me about some tough question maybe couldnt heal your sad about me and my own feeling. But, remember, times would recorded our wishing, send to sky, and go back to earth in different way. Well, i could be anywhere and belong's to you ever. Just two of Us. Wherever your soul are been formed into star, stone, land,flowers, and might be formed being my heart. No one knows....

Little While on My dreAm

Some called me i am a dreamer. Whatever i did they always said so. Might be i am forlorn and could been locked my self in the solitary room. There so many reasons why i was seemed like forlorn just as i do never curiously about how i am being on it. Okay, i love to be dreamer because dreamer could reach top of the world, digged depth of sea and even grasped universe on my hands. That's me.

With my dreams, i knew how fond someone with my own maybe some awkward attitude where is people do not understand it at all. But, this is differently story. I met someone on my way with stranged then looking into my eyes. He smiled at me and he didnt say anything. I felt, i ever seen him at somewhere but i doubted, was i met him on my real life or he comes into my dream before that time.

I was thinking harder to find who is he? Then times walked on and passed me through and he is gone in my view. I thought he would be come back and said something about him self, but he did'nt so i was trying find him on my own way.

Gradually, i begun knew him and he was blind man on my was dream. He was wise man, taught me how to look anyone not with my own eyes on but within heart. "Eyes can be lying by appearances but heart cannot be. Trust your heart and happines would be yours," he said me while holding my hands with gently. I didnt know him but he showed up infront of me when my heart trying to fight what's real i wanted in my life. He comes and go like smoke and he still on my wandered about who is he in existance of universe. "Better blind with our eyes than our hearts"