Crumbly Heart

We thought that we can strain away the pain
We thought we can ruin all matters with only sweeping away
We live in a wacky world
And we are failed to standing up for victory

Tears is not enough to clean stain misery from the hole of heart
We are in hurry to prone to consider the better circumtances
We are irritated with an alter ego that lead us to live in hell

Let's crumbly heart hanging on for awhile
Seize the day in touchful mood
We heard slightly string of the guitar's sound

We barely in the shadow of the dark
And We missed our lovers in a secrecy moment
To love and be loved is the greatest happiness

Left the foot steps behind and no desire to looking back
We are in separated moments to achieved those feelings
We were born in intimacy love and make it fear us to let love goes away
There is always a new sun in our life starting our first breath with smile

If You're Not the One

Wonderful song. We can feel someone that we love so much with this. This song from daniel bedingfield became so popular in Indonesia, 2002 and was one of my fave song at that time, ^_^. Lets join nostalgic feel and rockin' life with sweet memories.

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife (husband for me, actually, heheheheh)

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this **much** is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Farewell To My Weirdo Thoughts

Hey, ya My Weirdo Thoughts
Time to say Good bye to You
Oh...I am Singing With bliss : Wow..Farewell to My Weirdo Thoughts..!!!
We Never Meet Again, I am Sure

You were Occupied my Mind in Many Years
You rule me Out from The Normal Life
Here Comes The New Sun of My Life
New Breath and New Mindset

I will Join The Fanfare of Signicifant Way
Stillnes Thought of Agitation
You Are an Evil of My EmotioN
All's Well That Ends Well
You Are Poison in My Drained LifE
AGAIN:
Farewell to My Weirdo Thoughts
We NeVeR MeeT agaIN, even In HelL or HeaVen
If You Believe These are Exist
No Commands AnyMore From Ya...!!!!
A Bunch Abundance of Sacrifice Will Lead You Out of Mind

Be True to Your Woman

There is a friend of mine i met today. He is my old pal from long time. He still crazy like used to be and playful more than i'd ever thought. He stopped by and whisper on me about the true of the relationship. He failed to maintain his relationship. So, with the joke words, he said to my pal, sitting next to me, "Be True to Your Woman,".

I was looking through at him and asked him with my eyes, why he said that weird words. Did he do cheat on his Woman? Or is there something on men that we, women, never know about that. He laughed and with his beautifull eyebrow he winked at me.

"Dear friend, should i tell you that I never cheat on my woman. Never. But, I should say to you because you are woman and you are my friend, that, sometimes, we, men, pretending to be what women wanted. We want, our women, not see our weakness too deep and then make them abandoned us.

"Dear friend, building and find someone is so easy but to keep it on the right track is other problem. We could see many couples seems happy but they are not. They pretending to look happy so the others will think no problem then will come between them.

"You never see my pain because you shouldnt see, dear friend. My head so full with regret but couldnt say to my Woman. She didnt worthy to get the pain from the mistake that i did. I want say the truth but my mouth couldnt opened and i found my self was walking by my self on hollow world. No dying or living.

"Because you are my sister and also my friend, i have something to say: Tell your man to be true to you because when he is doing againts the true, trust me, soon or later, he will be regret to treating you like that. I am here to say that relationship is not easy to hold on. You can choose now, you could listened me or consider i never talk to you about this matter."

The Integrity will a part of human if they are being true to others, as a lovers, a friend, a sister, or even someone choose to be different form of creature. They must to be true or be genuine. That is what human should be.

The end of our conversation, he winked again and shaking my hands. "I know you will understand that soon, dear friend."

Blossom in The Spring

Revealed the spring season from the start
May blossom flower can whisper through
From it we learned about devotee
And what we called the truly Love

No one can exchange their pain how hard they try for
Even we burden the sun and we sunk the moon
Only we can see that a reflection from the mirror of destiny
Maybe we can accept or we ignore it

Blossom flower show me the Truly Love
Since human being distract from it
We just see most our life that love is for low passion, materialism, or to someone else
Then we left our mind behind to pursue nothing

That flower whatever we called it with rose, jasmine, or orchid
Belong to Divinity
Jiggling for a while
And gone for ever
at that time we learned about the eternity and belonging to

*Bismillah Tawakkaltu 'Ala Allah
(Dengan menyebut nama Allah, Aku berserah diri kepada-Nya)

Solitude Par

When the spring comes, the ice would be melting and there is new way to moving forward. I will take a place in front of row to seeking the pearl of life. I had through tough times and i feel better then because a warrior never to be a warrior if they cant define their life.

Let me call this place a thousand sunshine. I am sitting here and look up for more ancient story of life. I do never worry what would be life take me away as long as i had learned to grasping it. And you are people, poke fun at me as many as you can wish for because you never know when Karma comes to you.

I got a heritage spirit from my ancestor that we should chin up and hold on tears so that never been being a river and destroy the faith. Believe it, and you'll see it. Know it and you'll be it. The nightmare only comes to person who never TRUST their selves or regret what they have been done.

I have been here for a while and feel a joy and a adversity in same time. You dont have any idea who i am because i am the warrior from the past and come to future to define the world. I bended my knee to my Almighy Lord and wishing The Light will shimmering my face until the dead comes.