Only Hope

This song makes me feel closer with someone i love......

There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

performed by Mandy Moore (from a Walk to Remember movie)

You're one in a million, Kevin

You're one in a million, Oh now
You're one in a million, Oh

Sometimes I can't hate you every day
Sometimes you can fall for everyone you see
Only one can really make me stay
A sign from the sky
Said to me

You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us

I've been looking for that special one
And I've been searching for someone to give my love
And when I thought that all the hope was gone
You smile, there you were and I was gone

I always will remember how I felt that day
A feeling indescribable to me, Yeah
I always knew there was an answer for my prayer
And you, you're the one for me

You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
I was cool and everything was possible
You tried to catch me but it wasn't possible
Nobody could hurt me it was my game
Until I met you baby and went insane
And when you didn't want me, I wanted you
Because the finer thing bout it was I like to go
I like it when its difficult I like it when it's hard
You know it's worth it if ya find your heart

You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover one of the stars above us
You're one in a million, Oh
You're one in a million

Preeminent of Existency

I would never consider being evil for anyone. Then, if they said so, might be i had reason why should i do that. Let's we see in different point of views. I thought we made some decision for all those. When it finished so before long, it is not my blooper or bad intention from me.

All i know,i just always trying being nice for anyone. God knows my heart would never hurt anybody. I was taught to be friendfull for other in case i hope they would give me payback in good things too. I knew few people thought they did it to me with pleasant and hope i would be delighted. I am appreciated it even maybe it would make my life become ruined.

Then when friendship is over now in means God choose the best way to showed how people sometimes never tried believe hurt it doesnt means sad and happines it doesnt mean cheers, always. Then, i choose the best way of my life for someone i loved with light's of God at there. Might be it risky, some friends says, but there is no chance without risk and also in Chinese proverb, risk it means chance.

Wishing the best for everyone that thought i might be hurted them. There was something we never know. Look at that picture and then we will find preeminent of existency human being on it.

Mistikus Cinta

Ketika pertama kali
Jiwamu ingin selalu dekat
Dengan jiwaku yang belum bisa
Menterjemahkan segala
Arti pertemuan ini
Arti cumbu rayu ini
Yang mungkin bisa memusnahkan
Kenyataan hidup yang terjadi

Ketika jiwamu
Merasuk ke dalam
Aliran darahku dan meracuniku
Ketika jiwamu, memeluk hatiku
Dan biarkan jiwaku cumbui jiwamu

Ketika kamu, aku
Melebur menjadi satu
Dan hanya waktu yang mungkin bisa
Memahami apa yang terjadi

Apa yang sedang kurasa
Apa yang sedang kau rasa
Adalah cinta yang tak bisa
Dijelaskan dengan kata-kata

Untrusted Feeling

There are many ways to know how about people intention to me. I can be good friends, liar, teacher, sister, or maybe devil’s. In several occasion, I said, maybe I use worst ways to get know about it, but this is me. It builded by my journalist insting and maybe not much people would agreed with it and I unstated with them without complained,.

Even they called me devil’s or some worst words I am still okay because u knew them well they always misunderstood me. But, if I had intention to someone with depth, I think he knew it where is my heart go. Do not make complained to me because he knew me already. It called true lover. But, maybe I did mistake about how deep he knew me. So, it is what it is. I still damn right, how people always misunderstood my way. So it is way to showed me nobody knows me. Good thing.

If untrusted come between, how come feeling could bond stronger because untrusted become poison and destroyed true feeling.So, let time bring us to showed who will be right on this feeling. I still believe, Allah still love me on my own way.

Song of the Suling

Aug10 2007 for: Widiya Buana. By: Khalil Ali


The song of the suling,

Cries…

Crooning the story of my longing,

To be again, with you…


Yet, instead of the sadness,

With it’s desire to kill me;

I place you in my Hati,

As an Idol!


I long for you with,

Happiness…

And I busy my life with good works;

Preparing for the day of our, re-Union.


As it is for you, so it is with God.

My longing for you and my Love,

are but a reflection of the yearning I hold,

To be again, with our Allah! Amin.

Stone on Someone

i had nice thing to say. this all about small stone i found when walked around for got some freshy air. Not much know about stone including me. I am just simple girl and went out for something new. I never thought i would find curious stone on my way. None of Us will be know what will be found on road. We just know there should be something new out there prepared for us.

Then i brought this stone to my home, touched it, wondering, why such stone like this i found near my foosteps. This stone very unique seems there are sparkling light out into it. I guise at, rowling my eyes, and make sure there was nothing special on it. But why my heart so close with it?

Stone sometimes refer to rock. It made by some particles, minerals, and maybe the texture of the constituent particles and by the processes that formed them. I love to say stone, because it sounds very strengthen and powerfull. Stone refer to standing on principle or might be solid heart.

I knew already then why God had intention i found stone because stone sometimes being shaped into people. I knew it that stone build on into someone i have knowledge about him and i cannot denied he is stone in many things. Like in his heart,thought,principle, and even in love.

Two of Us

Look at me more please and i will telling you there was so much things you should know. When flowers bloosom at May and spread the scent then mantled me with it i am really naturally woman in every single day u ever seen before. Needs comfy, related, and sometimes need to be pampered.

I dont need more belongings for. Seems not important to said but it wasnt word i said for executed. When i felt alone i could seeking you for secure me. Maybe, in that day, i could say not have own emotional with you. Like When moon covered by cloud. But, there was reason, why i shall hiding more for makes my feel unbreakable.

Today, asking me about some tough question maybe couldnt heal your sad about me and my own feeling. But, remember, times would recorded our wishing, send to sky, and go back to earth in different way. Well, i could be anywhere and belong's to you ever. Just two of Us. Wherever your soul are been formed into star, stone, land,flowers, and might be formed being my heart. No one knows....

Little While on My dreAm

Some called me i am a dreamer. Whatever i did they always said so. Might be i am forlorn and could been locked my self in the solitary room. There so many reasons why i was seemed like forlorn just as i do never curiously about how i am being on it. Okay, i love to be dreamer because dreamer could reach top of the world, digged depth of sea and even grasped universe on my hands. That's me.

With my dreams, i knew how fond someone with my own maybe some awkward attitude where is people do not understand it at all. But, this is differently story. I met someone on my way with stranged then looking into my eyes. He smiled at me and he didnt say anything. I felt, i ever seen him at somewhere but i doubted, was i met him on my real life or he comes into my dream before that time.

I was thinking harder to find who is he? Then times walked on and passed me through and he is gone in my view. I thought he would be come back and said something about him self, but he did'nt so i was trying find him on my own way.

Gradually, i begun knew him and he was blind man on my was dream. He was wise man, taught me how to look anyone not with my own eyes on but within heart. "Eyes can be lying by appearances but heart cannot be. Trust your heart and happines would be yours," he said me while holding my hands with gently. I didnt know him but he showed up infront of me when my heart trying to fight what's real i wanted in my life. He comes and go like smoke and he still on my wandered about who is he in existance of universe. "Better blind with our eyes than our hearts"

My_Déjà _Vu

I have something new about life. I have been there in so many times but very awkward why i felt this time. The space when i belong to but never been felt before. it just like you are realized you had nice eyes by now even though you had it for many years along.

I do believe what people called deja-vu and i felt this morning.When i sat in next window over me, i felt it was happening me in previews years. I caught small bird with my eyes then flied into sky and left some smooth step in corner my heart. I have learnt why brain did it and some science called Deja-vu.

The term déjà vu describes the experience of feeling that one has witnessed or experienced a new situation previously. The term was coined by a French psychic researcher, Émile Boirac (1851–1917) in his book L'Avenir des sciences psychiques (The Future of Psychic Sciences), which expanded upon an essay he wrote while an undergraduate French concentrator at the University of Chicago.

It doesnt means because i have French friends and there were something called French Connection. I have little bit indulgent my self for passioned and found not most of it's was okay for me. Well, for good reason i still sync

Je T'aime... Moi Non Plus

- Je t’aime je t’aime
Oh oui je t’aime
- Moi non plus
- Oh mon amour
- Comme la vague irrésolue
Je vais, je vais et je viens
Entre tes reins
Je vais et je viens
Entre tes reins
Et je me retiens

- Je t’aime je t’aime
Oh oui je t’aime
- Moi non plus
- Oh mon amour
Tu es la vague, moi l’île nue
Tu vas, tu vas et tu viens
Entre mes reins
Tu vas et tu viens
Entre mes reins
Et je te rejoins

- Je t’aime je t’aime
Oh oui je t’aime
- Moi non plus
- Oh mon amour
- L’amour physique est sans issue
Je vais je vais et je viens
Entre tes reins
Je vais et je viens
Je me retiens
- Non ! maintenant viens...

Word Dont Come to Easy

Words by F.R. David

Words, dont come easy to me
How can i find a way
To make you see I love you?
Words dont come easy.
Words, dont come easy to me
This is the only way
For me to say I love you
Words dont come easy

Well i'm just a music man
Melody's so far my best friend
But my words are coming out wrong
and I - I reveal my heart to you and
hope that you believe it's true 'cause

Words, don't come easy to me
How can i find a way,To make you see i love you? words don't come easy.
This is just a simple song,That i've made for you on my own.
There's no hidden meaning you know,when I - when i say I love you honey,
Please believe i really do 'cause

Words, dont come easy to me
how can i find a way
to make you see I love you?
words dont come easy It isn't easy
Words dont come easy

Words, dont come easy to me
how can i find a way
to make you see I love you?
words dont come easy

Words, dont come easy to me
This is the only way
For me to say I love you
Words dont come easy

Touch My Heart

Touch My heart

Touch my heart and I'll touch yours
With a gentle word or two,
For kindness bears the sweetest fruit
That makes our dreams come true.
Touch my life with tenderness
And fill my cup with love.
Share my dreams as I share yours
Beyond the stars above.
Take my hand as I grow old
And lead me when I'm blind.
Show me that you really care…
Good Friends are hard to find.
Touch my heart and I'll touch yours
A little more each day
And then we both find happiness
Somewhere along the way.

PS: FOr J, thank you for sweestest things you done for me

Lady in The Black

LADY IN BLACK. A RARE QUALITY THIS LASS HAS, POISE, SOPHISTICATION AND ALL THAT JAZZ.
A QUEEN INDEED THIS FRIEND OF MINE, SHE SURE IS LOOKING MIGHTY FINE.
LADY IN BLACK--SIMPLY DIVINE.

JUST LOOK AT THE ANGEL IN THE FUSCHIA DRESS.
ISN'T SHE A SIGHT TO SEE;THIS DEAR WIDI KEEPS ME COMPANY.
WHEN AT NIGHT SHE WORKS SO HARD,
SHE BECOMES MY DARLING BARD.
WRITING IS HER FAVORITE JOY,
GEE AM I A LUCKY BOY.
KISSES, JOHNNY

Been Here Before by Jeremy Enigk

Been here before Though there's something in the air this time Now I wanna give away what I've taken back Run away with you toward the night

A thousand names. Though there's something in me cannot smile, don't wanna spend the day retracing steps. Run away with you toward the light.

I can't stay long in the morning. Another one went wrong it's ok now that you're gone. Only in your eyes a sudden need I sympathize.

A diamond daze A thousand strands of sunlight in her eyes. Now I wanna give away what I've taken back. Step away with you toward the night.

I can't stay long in the morning. Another one went wrong it's ok now that you're gone. Only in your eyes a sudden need I sympathize.

It's ok now that you're gone. Only in your eyes a sudden need denied I empathize. it's ok now that you're gone Hurry up and sleep, to the night you go

Me Over the Hollow Man

I never felt this things before. Like seems hollow man catched after me. I had looked for man with stranger character. Nobody could helped me from him. Firstable, he stunned me well with his good looking face.

But, it was so annoyed. I had became so haunted by him. I expected not to see him anymore. if i had seen his face it was seems like i turning on black tunnel, spinning me around. His tone sound tight me in crawling devil then i couldnt so far from him and soon. He ruined my soul without my permission. I did nt like him but my heart looks like underspelled by him.

He was looks like an angel for first but after that he became beast. He always insisted anything and very unfaithfully. How come he is been in this situation? Hopely all memorized gone about him then flushed away. I even dont want to look in his face.

I thought he must lighting up his day with something new. He said dont want anyone but me. I am sure, God put devils in his heart. A Man without sense of good thinking.He was werewolf where his heart has blackhole and no feel pain.

Puisi Kesedihan

Aku melihat cahaya rembulan
Menyusup di sela kemilau rambutmu
Yang tertiup di angin malam

Senjaku datang dan kuberharap helaian rambutmu ada di elusan tanganku
Angin tersesat di penantian malam
Melintasi jejak siang yang tertinggal
Kuingin meraihmu sejenak dalam bayangan kabutku

Aku tahu hidupku tidak akan panjang
Untuk bisa menikmati patahan senyum kesedihanmu
Tentang cinta sejati yang telah terkubur bersama prahara masa lalumu

Lovely Day

Willing sometimes describe me powerness where i felt make me so indigenous. But when i met you, my willingness raising my softly sides. I got you in somewhere places warmed my armed and sees me in dark hole.

I have shame when i have heard judged me i am in believe about eternal love. But, i felt, you are nice told me about who really i am. Your kindness, open hearted, humouris of course.

I have imagined that you have been said i am cute girl with nice personality. I hope it is not your bubbling on me. Mostly people have called me man eater. I knew it called and i kept it so deepest in my heart because it was hurted me anyway.

You present now looks like surveillance my weakness and growth me somehow. I have agreed with you where love could be eternal and your attention would be praised on me, this moment. Thank you for being in me in lovely day.

You once said to me, when you found soulmate, you would be with her in quite places. I am in deeply curiously what describe of that place. But, i have mine. The picture above maybe represented crib where you belong with your soulmate and you said it was me.

YoU BelOng To Me

see the pyramids around the Nile
watch the sunrise from a tropic isle
just remember darling all the while -
you belong to me

see the marketplace in old Angier
send me photographs and souvenirs
just remember when a dream appears -
you belong to me

and I'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too

fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember till you're home again -
you belong to me

oh I'll be so alone without you
maybe you'll be lonesome too

fly the ocean in a silver plane
see the jungle when it's wet with rain
just remember till you're home again -
you belong to me

PS: I Like this song to heard when i went to sleep...Nice Music....

See The Moonlight on Your Smile

SeE YoU in ParAdise ToNight
WheN The SiLver MoOn CoVer Up My EyEs
Got Your Smile in Groovy Style
You An AnGel in My SiDe

I Have been Waiting this so Longtime
I DreAMed OvER aNd OveR AgAin
So MisticAbLe ReLy in My HolDing HaNDs
WhEn TouCh YoUr SmiLe

SO I JusT Seen You iN RiGht PlaCe
I WonDeriNg LivE So ImPoSibble To ReacH
BuT When See The MoonLight on YouR Smile
You So Belong To Me