Sounds of My Nature

Oh My Lord....
Secure me from this fallen of my strengthen. When i wish to reach out Your hand's please touch my heart with a gently since i felt this pain in many times without a cure.

Oh Love.....
You carried away my soul and never give it back in the normal. Should i crying begged on you, oh Love, to share just a little bit of mercy. Why people talked about decent, kindness, loyalty, and genuinely but after then they throw away all those words behind them? Are they that we called hypocrite?

Oh, Mother Earth.....
I kissed your land to show you how i wish you holding me and secure me from this long-long pain. I laid down and feel tired of keeping this and wish that genuinely will come and touching my empty heart. I do my prostration now and truly believe when you forgive you love and when you love God's light shines on you

O...Sancta Simplicitas !

O...Sancta Simplicitas !
Where is our society goes to? Why the madness take over controll of this world? And why all people became so silently? I lost my concious into profound liquid doleful mind and dreadful heart.

O...Sancta Simplicitas !
We walked on through the shimmering mesmerize of consequences. We light up and drawning piece by piece of the moment of truth. So, why we standing still in here? Will we waiting new enlightment then loose cover in our dignity?

O...Sancta Simplicitas !
I have afraid to be solemnly and being do so. Please, make room for human frailty and patience, for no one can live up to such high expectations.

O...Sancta Simplicitas !
Release the suffering rather than hide behind a facade.O...Sancta Simplicitas !,O...Sancta Simplicitas !, O...Sancta Simplicitas ! I bow to my Dearest Lover, who blowing my primary breathing into my spirit.

O...Sancta Simplicitas !

Fragile and Smile

Let's we take a breath for a while when fragile heart shadows our life. Never think to pull back from the way we are walking through. Sometimes, each day not always seems nice but at least we still have some air to inhale and exhale.

I always feel new day in each day. Sunshine day, smile of people, fresh of air, nice friends of mine, and good thoughts in everytime i woke up in the morning. Don't keep the promise that you will do surely one thing in tomorrow. Just say, "I hope i can doing better in tomorrow morning." Nothing surely in this life. You should know that.

Hmmmmm....i really like this air. I could see my smile featuring every leaf on the trees. I had found big changes in my mind and I am glad I found this time. Yet despite no one seeing now at least time has choose being in my side, so far.

Wow....where is the fragile goes by? I think, it hides somewhere and scary be back to the people who always fought for strenghten of heart. No so easy for first to be honest, but, since we keep on our mind there is always happiness even in bad times, I am surely we could passing through this moments with ONLY one WORD: SMILE

Sinking Into NOW and THEN

Crying if you want to pull out of your empty feeling. If you could, choose a dark corner of your room so you can't let people might say about your sadness or looking through in your innocent eyes. Or maybe, you can choose to declared your sadness then your feeling will be good. The choice in your hands.

But, let me tell you about my own thoughts. My suggestion, put behind your worrying about looking silly since we always worry about how to be good look in public. Being goofy, silly, or ugly that moments like these are rare, so bask in your happiness. I was on that moment that i was felt awful if people know i was crying. Or I was seem not proper for being looking good in circle of my friends.

But, time taught me that all my worried is not worthy with the values in my spirit. I saw some girls jumping from their chair when guys gave them compliments for their physical things. They, the guys, did it to me before and then I am realized, the compliment was old school kind for me, NOW and THEN.

So, better than waste time for bare compliment instead, we are ( girls )should have a dignity and kind hearted for searching true heart of men and reach them for genuine attitude and feel it that they are a part of we are. My advise for you, girls, some of them became are good, good, good friends and one of them will wins your heart. But becareful, some or mostly guys just pretending. Beware...!!!!

Big Shocking Wave

We are rallied over time to reach out what we called a hope. But, for in a long time we have been walking carried out the pain, what we would seems not particular anymore. Nor happiness neither painful, we are still stuck on same situation. We are, human kind, too have delicious desire to being a part of what we called materialism.

We have been contributing silliness and the mob will be plunging into the weird world. Gradually, we look alike a zombie and we run out of the right path. This is some stuff rolling our humanity and always thought we are the great from the others.

Ugh....let us think about our present on this earth. What mission we carry on and then normally lead us to abnormal life. The world getting worst and worst. We had killed our selves and make some dishes for dinner in purpose.

What about self deception? No more rooms for taking a breath even for a while. We are like show room of life and reverse of these kinds of what being live of life. IF we defense our selves in several damage morals, beware for other direction attack. We never sure about anything. Ignite fire can be one choice for last breath out.

The Unforgiven

Anger, hateness, greedy, are part of this world. No more cares for human being anymore. They' ve only pursuit for their own happiness and forgot the others need their hands to standing up. This song has deeply truly meaning about that and in very-very first time i have seen this video, i was crying because it's described about the hopeless of old man to reach his own goal untill his death. Here it's the lyrics and this song taken from album, ReLoad in 1997.Interesting that the length this song is 6:23, almost twice length from a normal song in common. This is the link from the video, http://youtube.com/watch?v=5cGvzApDZKI.

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New blood joins this earth
And quikly hes subdued
Through constant pain disgrace
The young boy learns their rules

With time the child draws in
This whipping boy done wrong
Deprived of all his thoughts
The young man struggles on and on hes known
A vow unto his own
That never from this day
His will theyll take away

What Ive felt
What Ive known
Never shined through in what Ive shown
Never be
Never see
Wont see what might have been

What Ive felt
What Ive known
Never shined through in what Ive shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub the unforgiven

They dedicate their lives
To running all of his
He tries to please them all
This bitter man he is
Throughout his life the same
Hes battled constantly
This fight he cannot win
A tired man they see no longer cares
The old man then prepares
To die regretfully
That old man here is me

What Ive felt
What Ive known
Never shined through in what Ive shown
Never be
Never see
Wont see what might have been

What Ive felt
What Ive known
Never shined through in what Ive shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub the unforgiven

You labeled me
Ill label you
So I dub the unforgiven

I Ching

Belated Day
Where is it starting?
A While thirsty occupied desire too fast

Where is the station that place we will going to go?
Did u see the undertaker in the line of a street?

Therewith flowers fell down like the tears that you never see before
The tale's story coming from the state that evil forgot to betrayed it

Please....Come visit my dreams for pointed out my willingness
Do you see me in other someone else? Changing my face? My behaviour or I am not who I am..!!!

What Camillo said in Winter's Tale, "You pay a great deal too dear for what's given freely"
Beseech you for what will taken the rest of happiness that you've got before

The sense of foolness, ere being the winner on you
What would it be? Disobey follower or lover and you will live forever

Yang 'Ku Tunggu

Lagu dari Anggun ini memberikan sebuah makna tentang penantian akan datangnya cinta sejati. Karena cinta sejati adalah sesuatu yang bersifat sublim dan kedalaman maknanya terkadang tak bisa dipahami oleh sebagian besar orang. Duhai, para pencinta, yakinlah akan cinta sejati dari dirimu karena suatu ketika belahan jiwamu akan datang memanggil meski engkau bersama dengan orang lain. Itulah CINTA..!!!


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Lelah kuberjalan menelusuri hari,
Menunggu sesuatu tuk melupakanmu,
Wajah-wajah telah datang dan telah pergi,
Tetap kusendiri dan merindukanmu...

Ku ingin mengerti,
Bahwa rasa itu bisa berhenti...

Yang aku tunggu,
Masih kucari,
Yang aku tunggu,
Tuk hilangkan rasa sepi
Akan aku tunggu,
Datangnya hari,
Ku kan menunggu,
Saatnya jatuh cinta lagi...

Kulihat wajahmu di bayang embun pagi,
Ku dengar suaramu dihembusan bayu,
Mungkinkah kembali hati yang telah pergi,
Mekarkah kembali bunga yang telah layu...

Kan ku coba mengerti,
Bahwa rasa itu bisa berganti...

Yang aku tunggu,
Masih kucari,
Yang aku tunggu,
Tuk hilangkan rasa sepi
Akan aku tunggu,
Datangnya hari,
Ku kan menunggu,
Saatnya jatuh cinta lagi...

Akan kutunggu,
Masih percaya,
Aku menunggu,
Rasa itu pasti kan tiba..
Tetap kutunggu,
Tak kan berhenti,
Ku kan menunggu...
Saatnya jatuh cinta lagi..

Jangan lepas lagi..jangan sampai hilang,
Nanti akan tiba,nanti pasti datang...

Ku kan menunggu....(dirimu,engkaulah seorang yang aku tunggu 2x )

Memoir of Sweet AngeLs

Starry oh Blink of The Night. Come join with me and Jumping into the sand of the greatest moment.

Oh... my LoveLy Friends...You Are stay always in my heart. Your eyes is my shining day, YOur Smile is my breathing, Your Careness is My Healing. How can I do without You?

I've seen Paradise between us. You'Re Flawless in My view. Chain me with Your Pure Love. Never Avoided my Reaching in Your Shoulder 'Cuz I can see Your anticipated action in me when I was feel Useless. You' Re an Hero foR on This Earth.

Storm Comes and You'Re standing beside me and Hold me with braveness. How Many People can do That way? However You'Re only Human Being. But For me, You are An Angel for me.

OOO. Starry oh....Blink of The Night. Share the warmness of Friendship all Around the world. With this, Nor Hater Neither Jealousy will come to People. No COmparing And Greedy to Have it that Love for Only one Person. Because Love is never so SelFish and Love is about Given and Achieved The Best things from human kind. They'Re That I Called My Sweet AngelS.


PS: Dedicated this for All my friendS That Always Stay with Me in my Bad Times. For Ron, thank you for keeping Me in the right way when storm comes and keeping Me Smile.

Purest of Heart

Friends is our treasure no matter what will happen, they always stay with us. No matter we live in other side of the world, friend always stay in our heart, our thoughts. And real friends which is that they can feel what other people cannot feel it, they sweep away our tears with gentle, and do not care if you are good or bad. They still beside you and support what you do. This is poem from my friend, Ron, and i am very delight he wrote proper poem with his genuine heart. He knew well when i was sad and always gave me good response even i was in bad mood.


There are, out there among us,
Those of good nature and grace
That embodies the best of our kind,
And give me hope for the human race

They can make us better people,
These people of character and resolve
By showing us what we can be,
And how we, too, can evolve

For these people are like walking,
Talking balls of pure sunshine
A wink or a smile from one, and
All your troubles can be put behind

That infectious positive attitude
Shines right through your skin
And before you know it,
You feel it coming from within

They are so nice all the time
It’s hard to believe they are for real
But you can know that they are
By the way that they make you feel

They are the purest of heart
Bearing no malice to any
Radiating such positive energy,
And touching the lives of many

Ron Fryer
3/23/08
Inspired by Widi (she is one)


PS: We are friend forever Ron,no one can change it.

Missing The Fire

Whole things need a fire
It produced spirit of singular signal
Need a beat sometimes for waking up soul

I caught a dictum from the air bringing pieces of my last breath back again
None drawing brought satiesfied on me whether it would be good or bad
'Cause I'm missing the fire that it has been gone away
Smell it from a far
Necessity for breaking out the unruffled

Attempted to be a good soul in this scene, in which we will be pleasent to be on that fragment
Gained hopeful from zero to be hero, neither both of us killing our own willing
The risk of missing The fire is endured burning pain in our selves

Crumbly Heart

We thought that we can strain away the pain
We thought we can ruin all matters with only sweeping away
We live in a wacky world
And we are failed to standing up for victory

Tears is not enough to clean stain misery from the hole of heart
We are in hurry to prone to consider the better circumtances
We are irritated with an alter ego that lead us to live in hell

Let's crumbly heart hanging on for awhile
Seize the day in touchful mood
We heard slightly string of the guitar's sound

We barely in the shadow of the dark
And We missed our lovers in a secrecy moment
To love and be loved is the greatest happiness

Left the foot steps behind and no desire to looking back
We are in separated moments to achieved those feelings
We were born in intimacy love and make it fear us to let love goes away
There is always a new sun in our life starting our first breath with smile

If You're Not the One

Wonderful song. We can feel someone that we love so much with this. This song from daniel bedingfield became so popular in Indonesia, 2002 and was one of my fave song at that time, ^_^. Lets join nostalgic feel and rockin' life with sweet memories.

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife (husband for me, actually, heheheheh)

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this **much** is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Farewell To My Weirdo Thoughts

Hey, ya My Weirdo Thoughts
Time to say Good bye to You
Oh...I am Singing With bliss : Wow..Farewell to My Weirdo Thoughts..!!!
We Never Meet Again, I am Sure

You were Occupied my Mind in Many Years
You rule me Out from The Normal Life
Here Comes The New Sun of My Life
New Breath and New Mindset

I will Join The Fanfare of Signicifant Way
Stillnes Thought of Agitation
You Are an Evil of My EmotioN
All's Well That Ends Well
You Are Poison in My Drained LifE
AGAIN:
Farewell to My Weirdo Thoughts
We NeVeR MeeT agaIN, even In HelL or HeaVen
If You Believe These are Exist
No Commands AnyMore From Ya...!!!!
A Bunch Abundance of Sacrifice Will Lead You Out of Mind

Be True to Your Woman

There is a friend of mine i met today. He is my old pal from long time. He still crazy like used to be and playful more than i'd ever thought. He stopped by and whisper on me about the true of the relationship. He failed to maintain his relationship. So, with the joke words, he said to my pal, sitting next to me, "Be True to Your Woman,".

I was looking through at him and asked him with my eyes, why he said that weird words. Did he do cheat on his Woman? Or is there something on men that we, women, never know about that. He laughed and with his beautifull eyebrow he winked at me.

"Dear friend, should i tell you that I never cheat on my woman. Never. But, I should say to you because you are woman and you are my friend, that, sometimes, we, men, pretending to be what women wanted. We want, our women, not see our weakness too deep and then make them abandoned us.

"Dear friend, building and find someone is so easy but to keep it on the right track is other problem. We could see many couples seems happy but they are not. They pretending to look happy so the others will think no problem then will come between them.

"You never see my pain because you shouldnt see, dear friend. My head so full with regret but couldnt say to my Woman. She didnt worthy to get the pain from the mistake that i did. I want say the truth but my mouth couldnt opened and i found my self was walking by my self on hollow world. No dying or living.

"Because you are my sister and also my friend, i have something to say: Tell your man to be true to you because when he is doing againts the true, trust me, soon or later, he will be regret to treating you like that. I am here to say that relationship is not easy to hold on. You can choose now, you could listened me or consider i never talk to you about this matter."

The Integrity will a part of human if they are being true to others, as a lovers, a friend, a sister, or even someone choose to be different form of creature. They must to be true or be genuine. That is what human should be.

The end of our conversation, he winked again and shaking my hands. "I know you will understand that soon, dear friend."

Blossom in The Spring

Revealed the spring season from the start
May blossom flower can whisper through
From it we learned about devotee
And what we called the truly Love

No one can exchange their pain how hard they try for
Even we burden the sun and we sunk the moon
Only we can see that a reflection from the mirror of destiny
Maybe we can accept or we ignore it

Blossom flower show me the Truly Love
Since human being distract from it
We just see most our life that love is for low passion, materialism, or to someone else
Then we left our mind behind to pursue nothing

That flower whatever we called it with rose, jasmine, or orchid
Belong to Divinity
Jiggling for a while
And gone for ever
at that time we learned about the eternity and belonging to

*Bismillah Tawakkaltu 'Ala Allah
(Dengan menyebut nama Allah, Aku berserah diri kepada-Nya)

Solitude Par

When the spring comes, the ice would be melting and there is new way to moving forward. I will take a place in front of row to seeking the pearl of life. I had through tough times and i feel better then because a warrior never to be a warrior if they cant define their life.

Let me call this place a thousand sunshine. I am sitting here and look up for more ancient story of life. I do never worry what would be life take me away as long as i had learned to grasping it. And you are people, poke fun at me as many as you can wish for because you never know when Karma comes to you.

I got a heritage spirit from my ancestor that we should chin up and hold on tears so that never been being a river and destroy the faith. Believe it, and you'll see it. Know it and you'll be it. The nightmare only comes to person who never TRUST their selves or regret what they have been done.

I have been here for a while and feel a joy and a adversity in same time. You dont have any idea who i am because i am the warrior from the past and come to future to define the world. I bended my knee to my Almighy Lord and wishing The Light will shimmering my face until the dead comes.

Save The Best For Last

One of my fave songs....


Sometimes the snow comes down in june
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon
I see the passion in your eyes
Sometimes its all a big surprise
cause there was a time when all I did was wish
Youd tell me this was love
Its not the way I hoped or how I planned
But somehow its enough

And now were standing face to face
Isnt this world a crazy place
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

All of the nights you came to me
When some silly girl had set you free
You wondered how youd make it through
I wondered what was wrong with you

cause how could you give your love to someone else
And share your dreams with me
Sometimes the very thing youre looking for
Is the one thing you cant see

And now were standing face to face
Isnt this world a crazy place
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

Sometimes the very thing youre looking for
Is the one thing you cant see

Sometimes the snow comes down in june
Sometimes the sun goes round the moon
Just when I thought our chance had passed
You go and save the best for last

You went and saved the best for last

Teardrop

This song describe my feeling by now. Performance by The Radio, and became hit in 1997-1998.

Something in the words you never said
makes me feel I aint seen nothing yet
catch me now I am falling,
Hear the angels calling,
Calling somewhere deep inside my head

Close encounters of a different kind
Open up the part that's hidden inside
Many hearts get broken
While words are left unspoken
leaving nothing but a worried mind

We could flow like teardrops on the ocean
We could flow like water to the sea
It may sound unclever
We'd last forever
If you want to stay with me
If you want to stay with me


Never now for sure what's comming up
Sad the echo-beat will never stop
You are the one and only
But if you leave me lonley
You might as well let all the curtains drops

We could flow like teardrops on the ocean
We could flow like water to the sea
It may sound unclever
We'd last forever
If you want to stay with me
If you want to stay with me

Instrumental solo

We could flow like teardrops on the ocean
We could flow like water to the sea
It may sound unclever
We'd last forever
If you want to stay with me

If you'd just lay love on me

Sejuta Cita di Duka

Bukanlah sebuah kesedihan yang datang menyayat sukma. Tetapi rasa kebahagiaan yang datang sepenggal kemudian pergi tak berjejak. Adakah satu kata yang bisa terucapkan lagi jika laknat cinta telah menjadi angkara dari sebuah ketidakmengertian?

Aku telah melihat bahaya kesedihan itu datang sejak horizon bumi masih memerah saga oleh mentari. Tapi, saat itu, aku hanya berharap bahwa kesedihan itu hanya berupa fantasi pagi hari dan akan segera lenyap seperti embun tersaput sinar matahari.

Namun, sedih itu sepertinya bilah pisau yang tertancap di setiap irisan jantung dan mengoyak serpihan hati yang telah lama retak. Sudahlah, karena ikatan apapun tak akan mampu merekatkan luka yang sudah lama tertikam oleh sembilu