late at night

I had been feel so weird this time. While i take my hope so higherly then my passion dropped so fast. So, i trying understood my own taste being so awfull. I really missed him even my logically things won't allowed me has been there with breaking condition.

Where are go my heart slippin' away. It was, so mezmerize if i look into his face. Making me the first happy woman in the world ever. Then, if i dont love him anyway, so, why i need him someway making threat me with his nice joke.

Oh God, maybe i am so such fool about this let my heart taking mw aways from real world. I need him so much gave some justified in his love truthly while he said only me got his heart.

Look at me, boy, so, i make sure carefully about something between us is never ending. Never give up for searching me inside deeply. I knew you still mad of me then i am apologize for riot of our relationship. Meet me in your dream and i will satisfied your passion about true love

Kemilau Cinta Belia

Pucuk-pucuk cemara tidak bisa menyembunyikan kegembiraannya sesaat daunnya bergoyang tertiup angin musim hujan. Bayangan kesegaran itu sepertinya juga menyaput sejumput hatiku. Rasanya seperti jatuh cinta lagi. Lihatlah, aku tidak melihat kesuraman bayangan senja di waktu hujan dan cicit burung seolah merayakan keindahan anugerah alam nan syahdu.

Entah benar entah tidak, sepertinya hati tidak bisa menyembunyikan rasa bagaimana cinta itu datang padanya. Diam-diam, tanpa suara dan tiba-tiba saja merangkul dalam sebuah pelukan hangat. Adakah yang bisa menolak semua keindahan itu. Nyatanya, aku yang selama ini tidak memeperdulikan pesona keagungan itu, terpaksa harus berbalik dan melayangkan segurat senyuman bahagia atas kedatangan rahasia Tuhan yang terbesar.

Hmm...rasanya baru kemarin saja aku mengalami dashyatnya kekuatan cinta.14 tahun silam dan rasa itu seperti benih Adam yang tumbuh terus menerus, bertumbuh, dan merasakan jatuh bangunnya kepahitan hidup. Cinta itu bertumbuh dari sebuah perjalanan yang sangat panjang dan telah teruji di samudera kehidupan. Cinta yang terlahir dan sebuah rasa hakiki yang terus mengikuti meski cinta itu bersinggah di sosok yang berbeda dalam kurun waktu yang berbeda.

Cintaku yang kini telah menginjak usia belia terus berupaya mencari pencerahan dan setiap detik, ia menemukan sebuah persinggahan yang indah dan teramat menyedihkan jika ditinggalkan. Hanya saja, aku harus memberikan kesadaran pada cinta beliaku bahwa ia tidak mungkin terus duduk dan menikmati keindahan itu karena pendewasaan akan terus datang kepadanya, seburuk dan sekejam apapun pembelajaran itu. Yah, aku memang sedang jatuh cinta dan tidak ada yang bisa menyembunyikan rasa itu dari siapapun.

Dearest, someone who really believe in me. One day, God will lead us between our differences. Take my word
For RS, RA, and NP, God Bless All of You

Diplomat's Son

Why something in the world so weird to understand. I make friend with someone, will initially NP. He is diplomat son and we always contacted by email dan YM. He so smart and very independent. I like his personality even i never met him. I admired him when he said his father never use government facilities for their own activities.

Actually, i knew him by my friend, RA. Accidentally, because RA wrote my id yahoo in his diary and suddenly PA sees that. Firstly, i have ignored him with argument maybe he just make some trash with my relationship with RA. But after that, i thouhgth he was so nice guy and very kindhearted person.

But, when he said more intention in this relationship i thought i am not prepared for this because i have someone with i taken my promise for the future. Honestly, i like him, but it does not mean we should have more deeply intention.

Beside, i have more choices for my future: school, have own bussiness, being a political leader and make different for my country and finally being president of indonesia.