Letter From Him

Did you ever being wise for several reasons? sometimes we did it cuz we think its way to understand people and make them take us in easy. Even we never so sure, are we really accepted all those things for kindness or "just take" without meaning.

I grew up faster than my friends in my ages, in past time. I used to see several uncommon in my ages. I saw sadness, i should grew up to accept all those things for make sure, i was okay and not angry.

Since i met someone, i do really love him, i became more mature than before. Sometimes, i think he is my soulmate when i could make him smile and love me with his heart. But, when i hurted him, i was thinking maybe i am just dark hole for his life and not really need to be with him. Even so, i was hurted my self if i was think about that, cuz i dont want him leave me behind. Am i so greedy and selfish for my self? No one could hear me, when i was crying and mention his name in my lips and wish he came and make me calm and warm.

I need him like i need air for breath. I need him like i need warm to save me from cold. I need him cuz i do really wish him beside me and to be someone to lying down my head to his shoulder. His letter made me more realised about him.

The Reaper

Who will know what happened the next? We will never expected when raining comes, people throwing out bad jokes, or maybe the reaper come to us. In my people, dream has meaning and also in Qur'an (cuz i am Muslim so i trust on it), say many times about Josep dreams.

Yesterday, i was dream some kind weird thing. It was about someone from my past came to me and said something. I didnt know exactly what he did say to me, but maybe something about being hurted on that time.

I tried to get away from him but suddenly, rain fell down and i was standing alone on empty street. no one over there. As far as i see, only loang road with trees in row move cause wind. I am not afraid to death cuz it will come to us no matter what wetry will deal with. I just wondering, how come strange dream took that way and reach my unconcious to tell me something.

I'd been dying before, so i knew how to feeling it. But The Reaper, will have any form to come to infront of us. I wish, the reaper not man from my past

Harmony of Life

Days morning comes and touch my face with gently. Brightening lights coming over from my window. I felt calm, rejuvenated, and full of spirits. These days pretty enough to teach me alots about life.

There is warm from lights, cold from the air. No ambiguity for those. We cant feeling cold from fire, feeling love from hate, and feeling happiness from being hurt in same time. Otherwise, no one make those thing in parallel. This is we called life of harmony.

But, there must be reason why should we know that. Feeling cold to know there is thing to fight fire. Feeling love to know there is hate if we did mistake, and feeling happiness to know there is no one would like to be hurt.

I was back from my old days when my mind full of freedom thingking and my young age still had joyness only and full of sweet dreams. But the most thing I know, even I could turn back to these days and enjoyed best time, we couldn’t changed anything. All dreams at that days only few things we learnt how to reach own goals by now.

Best thing I like to remember is dream always be dreams. Its pursued us to do better. For bitter and sweet memorized, dreams take us to the places where we never can imagined before.

Other Half of Me

Jika seseorang mencintaimu dengan segenap jiwa raganya, memberikan semangat dan pengaruh yang dalam terhadap kepribadian kamu, maka tak ada pemandangan indah lain di dunia ini selain dirinya. Senyumnya akan menjadi matahari bagi kegelapan, tawanya menidurkan kelelahan jiwa, serta suaranya memberi roh dalam setiap helaan nafas.

Mencintai adalah memberikan sebuah kehidupan dalam kehidupan lain. Lihatlah kegersangan pohon yang tersirami oleh kesejukan air di musim kering. Pernahkah, sekelumit cinta sejati menidurkan malam-malam? Tidak. Cinta membangunkan setiap dengusan nafas dari sang pencinta.

Aku sangat mencintai seseorang saat ini. Seseorang yang tak pernah bisa kumengerti bagaimana ia datang dan membawa kehidupan baru dalam setiap senyum yang terkembang dari bibirku. Senyum yang dulunya hanya terlihat dari pasangan pencinta sejati dan terbaca dari karya sastra sang pujangga yang dimabuk cinta.

Malamku sunyi tanpa mendengar suaranya. Setiap untain kata yang keluar dari bibirnya seperti obat yang menghilangkan setiap sakit yang kuderita. Ia bukan dewa, raja, sang penguasa, ataupun sang pemilik kekayaan alam mayapada ini. Dia hanya seorang yang sederhana dan mencintai aku dengan caranya sendiri. Seseorang yang mengetahui setiap detak jantungku dan membaca seluruh isi pikiranku.

Dengannya, dunia kesedihan hanya khayalan. Kesedihan datang ketika aku tak bisa menyentuhnya, membelai wajahnya, dan merengkuhnya dalam kehangatan. Dia adalah jiwa kesederhanaanku yang mengajarkan banyak hidup dan kerasnya tantangan di masa akan datang. Dia datang tidak sebagai guru, tuan, pemilik atas diriku. Dia adalah the other half of me. My soulmate.Dia mutiara yang ada dalam hatiku yang selalu akan ada di sana dan memberikan kemewahan cinta kepadaku.