Tears in My Heart

Well, pretty hard to say, this, but i think i hurted my lovely soulmate. I couldnt understand why there is something inside my self drive me through argued something. I tried to halted anything before all going worse. I couldnt handled my self. I was so mean.

I will trying to do the best as wish as i could. That i caught my self into so selfish. In other side, so difficult to tell him i am not sweet girl so he barried talking anything with me. But i dont want seems i like all those things cuz i want to be perfect in his eyes. God, its not my own way.

Sometimes, i think, maybe i am not his dream girl. But keep thinking about this make me hurt and feelin' to die. Just imagined him be with other girl shaking my feeling and choosing let it go. But, can i be so selfish if he will not happy with me? cannot share anything with me? how bad i am.

I could feel he was very dissapointed cuz i didnt understand about his worried. I argued with my stubborn and not let him feel in peace. I know that already, i am just give bad influenced to him. As i said before to him, i just brought bad things for people, But he didnt understand what i said.

I know, i am just burden to him. A while he thinking about us, i am just thinking about my self. I was crying to remembered that, and sometimes thought crossed on my mind, why he met me, someone, with bad influenced?

I have nothing to say more. I am so guilty to make him feel sad but i am too obstinated to let him know i had bad feeling because i hurted him. Oh, God, i wish i never met him. I loved him so much and always forever but maybe he deserved good girl and someone who really understood him in good way. Not like me.

PS: People says, Nothing Last Forever But My Heart and My Love Always Forever for Him.